I had gallbladder removal surgery a week ago Friday. It was the first time that I have ever gone under a surgeon’s knife. The past week has been spent recuperating. There has been a lot of time spent in bed. There has been a lot of love shown to us by dear friends and family. There has been sweet time spent with my wife and two youngest sons. And, there has been a lot of being awake at hours that I am not usually up. Tonight is one of those nights.
Going into surgery. One of my prayers was that I would use this recuperation time with intentionality. I wanted to catch up on some things that I needed to catch up on – you know, the things that just continually get pushed aside in the tyranny of the urgent of everyday life. But more importantly, I wanted to spend more intentional time with Jesus, Who I like to call my best friend, even though my time with Him wouldn’t reflect that. So, in the interrupted hours of my sleep, and in my normal waking hours, I have purposely spent more time with Jesus this week. And, it has been good.
Tonight, I awoke at 2:45. After trying to get back to sleep, I decided to quit fighting it and to just pray and read the Bible. I opened to Psalm 119, the Bible’s longest chapter, revisiting a chapter of Scripture that several years ago I spent 176 days meditating upon. It was good to reread these verses, with fresh eyes. One of the things I love about the Bible is that it is the only book in the world that is alive. It, unlike any other book, has the ability to pierce my very soul with the presence, power, healing, and hope of Christ.
Tonight as I was reading Psalm 119, I was struck anew at verse 73, which says,
“You made me; you created me. Now give me the sense to follow your commands.” (Psalms 119:73 NLT)
I love the simplicity of the Psalmist’s plea in this verse. Can you just feel the tension mixed with hopeful anticipation that he must be feeling in his heart?
“You made me,” reflects David’s absolute conviction that he was fashioned by God. He was not a result of genetic chance. He was crafted by God, and therefore, had value to His creator.
“You created me,” he continues with poetic emphasis. Like he did in Psalm 139, David reflects some more on the fact that God was the architect of his existence. His very existence testified to the omnipotent God, and on the basis of God’s power and plan for David’s life, David would now offer up his plea.
“Now give me the sense to follow Your commands.” That is really calling it what it is, isn’t it. So much of humanity’s pain, sorrow, trouble, and strife comes down to the fact that we don’t have the good sense to follow God’s commands. We either think we know better than God, are too proud to submit to God, or simply want to ignore God and do things our way. Oh what pain that sort of thinking has wrought us!
I used to know a precocious little boy who was fond of beginning just about any answer with the words, “It just makes common sense.”
“It just makes common sense,” he’d say, “that 2 + 2 is 4.”
“It just makes common sense,” he’d say, “that Daddy loves my Mom.”
You get the picture. Well, friends, it just makes common sense, that God’s way is better than our way. So, like David, may we plead with God, the Creator of our sometimes stubborn minds, to give us the sense to follow His commands. Life goes better when we do things His way. It always has, and always will. That is something that just makes sense!
I go back to my normal routine this week. In truth, that is probably part of why I can’t sleep tonight. There is excitement about getting back to what God has called me to do. There is renewed vision for many areas of my personal and professional life. There are new habits that I am longing to see take root in my life. And, there is the fear that I will allow the tyranny of the urgent, the expectations of myself and others, and the sin that so easily entangles to drown out the priorities that God would have for me.
You made me.
You created me.
Precious Redeemer and Friend.
You made me.
And, you placed me in my parent’s home . . . What a gift that was and continues to be in my life!
You brought me through the awkward years of growing up.
You sent me to a college far from home, where you stirred up in me a desire for Your Word, and introduced me to my precious wife.
You blessed us with four wonderful kids, and scores of friends around the world.
You blessed us with four wonderful church families.
You are still shaping me . . . still molding me . . . still creating me.
You make . . . You create . . . You give.
Now, give me the sense to follow Your commands.
For that might just be the most important thing I need in life right now.
Oh, and just in case that verse wasn’t enough to ponder today, check out the follow-up verse!
May all who fear you find in me a cause for joy, for I have put my hope in your word. (Psalms 119:74 NLT)
Now that’s a prayer! May we all strive to live in such a way that our lives will give others a cause for joy!